Headless Chicken

I'm starting to pick up on a pattern, maybe.

Like, this really strong tendency to busy myself with otherwise 'productive' activities to distract myself from the guilt I feel for avoiding other petty, yet still important tasks. It's pretty simple stuff, usually. I just really don't like to do it. I'm never sure what sort of language to use, or whatever. Maybe I really do lack social grace.

I don't really think that this is the issue, though. It never used to be, at least. I used to be able to handle myself. Maybe I just wasn't so self-conscious. Maybe I just never noticed how awkward I forced things to be around me.

But it's not all about me. Oh, no. That would be way too much stress. I wouldn't function.

By the way, this video is pretty nice. The music is really nice. I guess Oval was active in the early '90's, but the music doesn't seem to have aged that much. I always found it really refreshing to find music that seems so completely out of it's time. I guess that's a lot of what drives forward Lo-Fi and hipster stuff these days, but when music seems to exist outside of its own time, in the sense that it came before its time, there's something haunting to it.

I wonder if there will come a time when I can take another listen and say that I was wrong. That this piece was very much a product of its time. That I just couldn't see it, then.